Log #5

Self-discovery 

2017, I'm at the second year of being a college student in NTUST.  According to my age,  this year should actually be my third year as a college student. Due to my father's job issue, my family and I have immigrated to Thailand while I was at the age of twelve.  And that changed not only my life, but also my characteristic and personality.

As a friend, I used to be a very crazy, out-going, friendly but self centered person; as  a student, I used to be a very active, responsive, and noisy student. (while I was in elementary school)  But because of moving to Thailand and the need of adapting new culture, new language, new environment and all, turns me into a quiet student. Mostly due to the lack of English ability. I couldn't communicate with others properly or understand what the teacher was saying. That gives me depression. Imaging an active and responsive student being limited in school based on language problems. So I was in depression for a couple of weeks, but I didn't tell my parents about it because I don't want them to be worried.  Another reason why I didn't tell anyone about my problem is because I don't want them to look down on me or  being disappointed.  

Everybody knows that Chinese familys loves to compare their child with their cousins. So I pretended that everything was fine, in order to keep my face and also preventing my parents from embarrassment and keep humiliation away from my relatives. But thanks to my relatives horrible behavior, I couldn't stand with people looking down on me or humiliate my parents, so I set myself a goal. That 

 goal is to learn Thai language as fast as possible.

At the end, maybe is because of my strength, or is because of my persistence or hard work; I successfully managed to understand Thai language fluently in three month, and managed to speak and use it fluently within six month after our immigration. After being able to communicate, I'm back to the old me. The happy, out going, and active me.

I think through this story, you can tell that I'm a person with strength and a person being concerned about face-saving (愛面子）. At the same time, I'm also a conscientious person with ambition to strive for the best, with extreme hunger after knowledge, and also protective towards those who I love and care for.