In fact, I am a person who doesn’t like to talk in front of too many
people. I have less confidence in myself. I don’t know why I often get nervous
easily when everyone pays attention to me and listens to me. Sometimes I am
envious of those who can show their confidence, express their feelings, and
share their ideas generously. When people ask me, “What kind of person you are?”
I often feel confused because I usually can’t explain what kind of person I am.
I often think why can’t I reply them; I actually the one who understand myself
the most. However, I know I don’t really understand myself too much. I want to
prove myself that I am actually a person who can show the best to others, do
many meaningful things, and learn how to express myself, so I decide to join
the student association of our department. I actually learn a lot such as
communicating with people, arranging my time efficiently, and being more confidence
in myself. Although there are still many things that I have to learn, I think I
have done a great job at least.
Sometimes
I will also think I am a timid person. Every time others request me to do
something that I don’t want to do, I often don’t know how to refuse. I know I am
not happy about this, but I often choose to ignore my feelings. Until I read
the article that I paste below, I realize that I am wrong. It mentions that “Stop
being your own worst enemy! Stop lying to yourself about your emotions and
feelings and start accepting them and allowing yourself to feel whatever is it
you feel.” I am really inspires by this sentence because I understand that I
should follow my own heart or I will feel upset every time when this kind of
things happen. Finally, I want to share another sentence that I think it is really
good in the same article. “Being true to my feelings and acknowledging them as
well as validating them have released so much fear in me. It has released my
fear of not being good enough as well as my fear of not living up to the
expectations I set for myself.” Just as the first paragraph that I mention,
I have less confidence in myself, so I will sometimes feel I am not good
enough. However, after reading this, I feel much better and get more understanding
in myself.
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