Log #4

So I didn't finish the last book I had been working on for the past 3 logs. I realized I no longer looked forward to reading it more so I thought why not choose a book that interested me?

That's why I immediately bought a copy of "Sex and the City" online. It has been one of my favorite TV show since I was little but I have never read the book.

At the very start Carrie talked about how she came up with the conclusion with her friends that everyone should just stay single in New York. Because there are just simply too many fun. You get to enjoy your nights with your friends, you dance with them in a pub at 3 in the morning, you drink until you're wasted, and you may also get a little something something. So why do you need/want a partner?

I had a little debate with myself after I read that. I get both sides, but really which is better?

Object the idea of not having a relationship, easy. People love love. That is why there are so many romantic movies, and also so many romantic novels, and also so many other stuff that are about romance. Love is in our nature so of course people will look for love and affection, even if they do it subconsciously, they still do. It is just that simple.

On the other side though, agreeing with what Carrie said. Here's a little story of mine, or it's just a little sharing. I spent 2 months living in New York when I was 11 years old and that was the most amazing time in my life. Even though I was little, it still get its own way to change the woman in me. I remember I wrote it on diary saying that I would be an independent woman from the new generation who had a good job and no boyfriend at all. And why? I wrote, "because I don't need a guy to lower my expectation of life."

That is just ridiculous when I read it older, I had no idea what I was thinking about. I literally told myself, "C'mon, you were like what? 10? Do you have to be THAT dramatic?"

But if you think about that, there are a lot of successful women who think that way. They don't want kids, a lazy husband, a whatsoever relationship. They want to enjoy their life and they refuse to take more responsibilities than they are already taking.

So the conclusion? I didn't come up with one. I do believe in love like most of the people do. But there is also a part of me who is just really anti-social and anti everything. I guess relationships work for some people, just not everyone. As long as you're loving the person you love now because you do instead of just wanting a relationship, it should be cool. Life is short, if you want to have fun, have fun. If you want to love, love.