log #5

This is a story about a girl named Hazel who had a cancer and was strapped in her world. She had some symptoms of Depression; thus, her parents urged her to see a doctor and join The Support Group. To make her parents happy, she did what her parents wished. If I were Hazel, I would do the same thing for my parents. When we suffer from diseases, it’s our parents who will shoulder a lot of pressure and should endure the pain the most. It’s like a person using a knife stabbing your heart; however, they can’t express their feelings. They have to pretend nothing changes and everything will be alright because they don’t want to inflict more pain on their children. I can imagine how heart-broken Hazel’s parents were when they knew that their daughter got a cancer because I have been confronted with the same situation.

 At that time, I felt like it’s the end of the world, and I lost a thread of hope to move on. I lived in my own world for a long time, and no matter what others told me, I just couldn’t listen to them as if I were a deaf. I kept complaining why the predicament happened to me without expectation and why I would face this kind of situation when I was only 19-year-old. I like this prayer: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. This prayer inspires me to think about just focusing on what we are able to do instead of drowning ourselves with unchangeable reality. Sometimes depressed or frustrated, we tend to bury ourselves in thinking about bad things continually. However, is it useful to think about it and if we keep doing so, anything would really change? I think we all know that it’s impossible to change anything, so why not embark on things we can change? This is the answer that I find out after contemplate for a while.

       

I really look forward to reading it because I think this book resembles a guideline of life, telling us people’s life story and making us introspect.