LOG #3

                     From page 99 to 149, the case i mentioned is still not clear. The girl only heard some bad words from her classmates like nigger-lovers which consider inappropriate to defend black people for rights in such a traditional society. The character felt so angry about the mean words toward her father even though she didn't understand it exactly. Once, the cousin called her father a nigger-lover again and she was so angry that she spoke rude language to him. Without a  chance to explain, she was scolded by her beloved uncle. She felt so depressed to encounter such the pain but no one understand her. On the other hand, the beloved uncle also felt upset about the girl's behavior and he think himself not knowing a child so well. 

                      To clarify the mistake, there is a conversation between her father and the uncle that i like. It says, "she had her owns views about things, a lot different from mine. I  told you that if you hadn't lost your head i 'd have made you do read to her. I wanted you to see what real courage is , instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand." This reminds my teenage hood when i was in a adolescent. I still remember i often locked the door after a fight with my mom, leaving her sadness and worrisome.  I felt no body in the world understand me except for my friends. At that time, i lose the direction toward life and i always think negatively. For example, i insisted to go to overseas college but knowing that we have no money to afford the tuition. Of course, my mom didn't accept my request but i felt that she didn't support my dream to come true. When i looked back to my immature behavior, i believe i could still realize studying abroad if i were brave enough to leave the comfort zone. i always ask for my parent's financial support and i don't want to take the responsibility on my own. Even in such an age, 19 years-old, i feel ashamed that I choose to stay in Taiwan and refuse to grow up. 

                         It occurs to me that if i was born not in Taiwan, what life would be different? i love my family but i just wonder is it the society that makes me shy and so afraid of facing the difficulties. Anyway, i feel surprised to be inspired by this book and i am looking forward to the following plot.