Log #2

Log #2

Title: P.S. I love you

Pages: p.88~p.177

In the May’s letter, Gerry asked Holly to participate in a karaoke competition. It was an embarrassing experience for Holly to sing a karaoke, but Gerry wanted her to go through it. Fortunately, her family and friends were all there to support her on that day. She stood on the stage and finally conquered her fear. For Holly, it seemed that Gerry was definitely somewhere with her. In the next month, Gerry told Holly she didn’t need his belongings anymore and asked her to throw away them. And Holly did it. On the other hand, Holly’s brother Declan shot a documentary about club life called “The Girls and the City,” which made Holly mad because it was aired on TV and it contained much buffoonery of Holly’s, making her embarrassed. Also, she was afraid others would know her sorrow for losing Gerry.   

There is a situation when one faces something difficult and he attempts to escape but eventually still fails to escape. We all have encountered this. When Holly was waiting for her turn to go on the stage, she was so nervous because she didn’t want to sing and most importantly she thought she was bad at it. She was attempting to escape from what she feared. I think I have this kind of experience as well, or frankly speaking, everyone has. Every time when I speak English in front of the class or a group of people, I feel nervous and cannot help trembling. It is because for a long time, English speaking is my weakness. Or, I think it my weakness. When we don’t believe in ourselves, we would fear to fail. We’ll be afraid of making mistakes and think it so unbearably shameful. However, it can be conquered. We can’t always run away from the things we fear. The solution to conquering the fear is to bravely face it. I believe, to keep trying, I will eventually gain enough courage.

As for the documentary Declan shot, after Holly saw it, she was in total panic. Because she saw herself drunk in the film and she knew why. She was drunk for Gerry. And she was afraid others would know it and felt sad for her. We are usually worried about other’s thought and try to seal our own thought. But the truth is the people who really care you will not embarrass you. They will comfort you in the right way.