Last night when I was taking a shower, I accidentally found a centipede crawling up the draining pipe and it was crawling to somewhere dry to stay alive. As I saw it, I nearly screamed! However, it was the fleeing centipede that spurred me on to think. If I were going to die soon, the first thought that would flash through my mind would be my bucket list.
I have got a long lines of items on my bucket list, including going to the north pole to see wild polar bears and aurora borealis, visiting Africa to set my eye on the wildlife, wandering on the desert of Egypt, trying bungee jumping from the highest building available, and so on. All very wild. All very big. These are the goals I set up for myself when I was in high school, where all I had to do was learning and worrying about my grades and nothing else. As I grew older and became a college student, I found myself losing direction of life. Now there are so many stuff to worry about: my friends, my projects, my exams, my club activities, my job, my rent, and so forth. My mind is so filled with such things that I nearly leave my dreams behind.
I used to be such a brave, fearless girl who was willing to try everything new, and now I am oppressed my reality. Of course during my college life I have tried some novel stuff like holding camps or being a club leader. Nevertheless, I found myself so vulnerable and so easy to break down after devoting myself to these activities and boom! there came load load loads of problems. I suddenly realized that after all we would have to face the world alone. Yes there will be our friends, families, or even strangers, yet all they do is listen to you and give you advice. When it comes to really solving the problem, it is I myself that can take action.
I AM THE DECISION MAKER. I decide to call back the courageous girl inside of me. I decide not to be easily knocked down by obstacles. I decide, I decide, I decide. But I'm afraid. This is me. The inconsistent me.
Making decision is as easy as drawing a concept map; actually talking and writing about the content of your project is another task, more effort demanding. So taking action is always the threshold we need to step over. So, after finding your own problems, please list the first step you are willing to try and literally work it out. Like my question to your log 5: What further will you do? The action. Tell me once you actually try it.
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