Log 7

In Teusdays with Morrie, Mitch described his life being filled up by work, work that had consumed not only all of his time but also his dreams. I see myself in me. I started out reading this book because I have been feeling lost ever since we watched the TEDx Talk video in class about living cautiously. I have lived cautiously, giving rational thoughts to even to irrational actions. But now, I seem to be seeing a problem stemming from somewhere much deeper than building my guard. Same as Mitch in the book, I, too, tries to grab everything in my path, seize every opportunity to evolve, and take as much as I can. However, I don’t feel a sense of accomplishment. I will myself to do these things that I consider at the moment to be beneficial to my future career. Yet, also the same as Mitch, I no longer know what the things I want are. I filled my days with work, went to bed no later than 1 o’clock, and wake up in the morning with dozens of massages waiting to be dealt with. This life style makes me feel alive, but that is all I feel, alive. It is not the same feeling as “living”. In contrast to Mitch, Morrie did everything he wanted and lived a happy life, even in face of death. It seems so easy the way the book described it, and I hope I can one day live a life like Morrie’s, without regret. Most importantly, I need to find a reason for everything I am doing, so that I can finally make choices between all the opportunities presented to me.