Log #7

I regard myself as a very generous person. I like to share what I have to people around me, and I am willing to give others a hand. However, the definition of generosity has been changed a little bit due to the story below. In these two weeks, I have been busy in moving home, from Yonghe to Lozhou, for my landlord is going to sell the house. When I told my one of my best friends whom I had helped to move from Changhua to Taipei, she didn’t say a single word. Originally, I was expecting her kindness just like what I had shown to her, but then I found she was not going to reach out her hand at all. I was very sad and disappointed. To be honest, I think I am a very independent person, and I believe I can definitely do it myself. However, her indifference has really broken my heart. Although when I’m giving others a hand, I’m not thinking of receiving any rewards in return especially when the ones are my best friends. Nevertheless, I am expecting one day when I am in need, they can also give me a hand. Unfortunately, it seemed that my kindness and my efforts were taken for granted. Then, I started to think if I was too nosy that I should not be so generous to people. After talking with other friends and my mom, I figured out the problem lies in me not knowing how to tell who is the one worth giving. Even though the incident happens again, I am sure I will do the same thing. Therefore, it is important for me to know what I could do, not being indifferent or nosy, but to know exactly what is affordable in this stage or in the relationship. Now I have a better understanding on generosity. However, I still believe that it’s better to give than to receive.