Log #7

   




Recently I have read a book called "The Servant: A Simple Story About the True Essence of leadership." I know, the book looks like it has no connection with self discovering. Well, it doesn't. However, in this book is one point about "love" that I found interesting, and the point can also come to explain my actions after knowing my true self.







The book, although talks about leadership, mentions that one needs to love in order to lead. The definition of "love" here is far different from what I believe. Cited from the Bible, "love" is patience, kindness, humility, respectfulness, selflessness, forgiveness, honesty, and commitment. Love is a verb and thus should be expressed with actions. Then, what does this have to do with  self discovering?

Do you love yourself? Do I love myself? Do I show patience and forgiveness to myself when I make mistakes, or I indulge myself in the self-blaming, self-doubting environment? Am I honest to myself? Do I keep promises to myself? Am I humble, am I respectful, am I selfless to myself? Do I accept myself? After questioning myself, I realize that I do not love myself enough.

If I loved myself enough, I would accept what I truly am. I would not blame myself so hard last week in the log. Now with the new meaning of love, I decide to embrace. Even though I am not courageous any more, even though the reality nearly defeats me, even though I almost lose direction, I have decide to love myself. Without these feelings, these situations, I would not be me. These experiences are valuable because they make me who I am. So, do I take actions? Yes, I would start to love myself.