Log #7

Self-Doubt: What is it All About?

Truly, I am a person who has self-doubt and can't make decisions quickly. After seeing the article which is posted by the teacher, I think self-doubt isn’t an element that makes us depressed; rather, it could help us become stronger.

“True life is short and it is going to be over before you are ready”, which I like very much, is a sentence said by Rhonda Chrane. Whenever I make big decisions, I would ponder for several days and ask for my friends’ suggestions. I like to try new challenges but I would worry about whether I have the ability to handle it or not, which means that I doubt myself unconsciously. Take me for example. I still can remember the two unforgettable experiences of self-doubt. (One is that I defeat self-doubt and the other is that I was defeated by it.)

For one I overcome self-doubt. That was the first time I served as a vice coordinator of Christmas activity that was held by my club. In the beginning, my senior sister asked me whether I had the interest to be a vice coordinator of this activity or not. At that time, I hesitated for several days because I doubted that whether I had the ability to hold such a big activity or not. I was worried about my carelessness would cause a big problem. However, in my heart, I wanted to try a new challenge that I haven’t experienced before. After consulting with my close friends, I decided to take it and stop living in my own comfort zone. I wouldn’t deny the process of holding this activity was hard and tired; however, I liked a sense of accomplishment at the end of this activity. At that night when I slept on my bed, I couldn’t believe I not only made it but also made it very well!! Then I realized that I had the ability to hold the activity but I was a lack of confidence. As long as I defeated it, everything would be much easier than I thought.

As for the one that I was defeated by self-doubt. Half year ago, my senior sister gave me information, which aimed to cultivate international talent. I was interested in joining this plan; however, again, I was worried about whether I had the ability to join it or not. I spent several days thinking about this question; thus,  I missed the chance to prepare and sign up for it. Now, I can only see the photos that are posted by the organization on FACEBOOK and regret why I dare not to give myself a chance to take the challenge.

Like Rhonda Chrane says “True life is short and it is going to be over before you are ready.” Life is quite short, I need to seize every chance to do what I want and be the one I want to be.