Serenity or excitement? What kind
of life style do you expect?
Last week would be the toughest period
of my ongoing life. Everything is just in a mess. Due to my own carelessness, I
leave my team, my schoolwork, and my life in danger. I wanted my team be
perfect, but I couldn’t lead my teammates to the right direction with right
way. I disappointed lots of people. I felt sorry. Sorry for my useless, sorry
for my immature, sorry for my weakness. Although all the problems were solved in
the end, it would be a great issue I need to reflect. Therefore, I went back my
hometown to have a deep precipitation.
I once wanted to do lots of things,
experience different lives, and become an irreplaceable man. However, as the
life become busier, I started to realize that this is not what I want. I feel
confused. I was born in Yulin, a remote area of Taiwan. My hometown is just a
small village. I studied in a small school, and my daily life was simple.
Somehow, I started to yearn for a metropolitan life during that time. I dreamed
of a different life, a more colorful and competitive life. Therefore, I finally
came to Taipei. Participating in activities and clubs are fresh and
interesting, of course. However, when the passion disappeared, nothing would
keep you stay, especially when you understand those experience can’t help you
anymore.
When I occasionally listened to the
music The Ordinary Road, I suddenly
realized that what I want is nothing but only a life with serenity. Of course,
I still want to improve myself, to be better, and to learn more. However, it
can be simpler. Just a content life. When the passion finally disappeared, what
I have is nothing but a sense of responsibility. I sorted out my attitude, and
kept finishing the last mile.
The Ordinary Road: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjTT5_RSkw4
Dear 建宏，I had to listen to the song when replying to your log! Great music! And I think it's better than the rendering by 張信哲(XD!). Thank you! As for your recent self-doubt, frustration, and a low tide mood, I think I have very much resonance with your feelings, for I am also having them right now, after getting the curriculum feedback from your peers, ha! This is to tell you, it will happen once in a while in one's life time, no matter how inexperienced you are, or how senior I am. So have some repose for a while, getting your thoughts cleared, plugging up your courage, bravely embrace the good and bad about yourself and then get back on your feet again. That's how life is and how we mature as a person. God bless you! By the way, as for music, this group is one of my favorites, Escape Plan! 加油！
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