Log #7

Log #7

Title: The Fault in Our Stars

Author: John Green

Page: ~P. 291

With Gus’s cancer deteriorating, the pages in each chapter are fewer and fewer. And then Gus died. The rest of the pages are almost talking about mourning Gus’s death.

“Ignorance is bliss.” As we become adults, we have to know more things. More things we had imagined good but actually suck. I usually thinking that ignoring may be the best way to live happily. Not actually, however.

I think, the concept of the whole book is about remembering. To remember the people after he/she died and to be remembered by people after we die.

Hazel had kept thinking about how people would think of her after she died. She didn’t want to be remembered as a cancer fighter, but just “Hazel”. I contemplate over the question of what I want people to remember me. I hold no answer yet. A cancer patient will be remembered as a cancer fighter; a novelist will be remembered as a writer. And what am I?

There’s what Hazel’s father told her: “Universe wants to be noticed.” I love the theory he believed. However, the fact is that, we want to be noticed by the universe. The unfair universe gives everyone what they should be given. Some people have everything while some people have nothing. I know I want to be noticed by the universe too. Although I am lucky enough to have a healthy body－which Hazel and Gus didn’t have－sometimes I still think it has stolen many important things from me. The universe is injustice. But on the contrast, what do we give the universe?

I was confused about Peter (the author of AIA in this story)’s attitude in Amsterdam; I thought John Green must give us an explanation, and he did. When Hazel went to visit Peter, she wore in Anne (the main character in AIA)’s style, which made Peter mad. Peter first said AIA was a fiction but admitted it was based on his dead daughter. I wonder whether John Green really made up this novel as he reminded us of in the front page. There are many forms of remembering: building a statue, composing a song, or writing a novel, for the dead. For me, I want to be remembered in a novel. There will be full of my life, including the people I have met through my life. Maybe.

The closer to the end of the book, the torturing it is. I had started to cry even before Gus’s death, and it is too heartbreaking to continue this story, though there are not many pages left… Actually, when I found Gus was about to die, I stopped reading this book for days because I didn’t want this happened. Sadly, however, it had to happen. The novel is novel, but sill, it’s a life of someone. Whether a fake someone or a real someone, his life had been decided by the author. (I’m so sad now and I am still mourning for Gus.) 

At last, Isaac said Gus had mentioned he wrote a sequel of AIA for Hazel. Because the perspective of this book is from Hazel, I wonder what Gus would say. It might explain what Gus’s life is and what he thought about Hazel.