2016年12月17日 星期六

Log #8


The Life List
Lori Nelson Spielman
Pages :167-271


2. Get a dog
10. Be an awesome teacher

From getting a dog to become an awesome teacher, Brett was astonished by how much she has changed in the past 5 months. She is happier now - alive to be exact. She has started to realize what kind of thing that works the best for her. And indeed she is becoming more confident than ever. 
During these times, she understands that not all relationship will lead to a beautiful ending. She lost one of her best friends- Megan, for being in a relationship with her ex-boyfriend. She was also mixed in a false romantic alarm with her mother's attorney- Brad. But sometimes, good things happen when you least expect it. Aside from all the misfortunes, Brett was finally reunited with her biological father who was a very fine and a loving gentleman and she even has a wonderful little sister now.

There are still 7 months left for Brett to accomplish her other 5 lists. Honestly, I am quite afraid for Brett for not being able to fulfill her mission. Let's take "have a baby" as a vivid example. How could she get pregnant and successfully deliver her baby in just 7 months?? It's nearly impossible! 
But well I had this hunch that maybe the baby won't be hers, or maybe an adoption?  I also saw a little sign showing that her student, Sanquita won't be able to survive her labor. So there's a possibility that her baby will be Brett's. But still, I hope that Sanquita will survive and live together with her baby.

I was very entertained by Brett character's development.
 Just like in one of her conversation with Carrie, Brett said, "There's nothing enviable about my life. It's depressing being alone". 
But later in another scene, when she was asked by the poor whether she had any idea how long it took for them to save up even bills?? Brett mumbled to herself " No, I don't. For reasons I cannot explain or possibly justify, I was dealt a lucky hand, a hand that included love and money and education. I'm flooded with guilt and gratitude, humility and heartbreak ". And for once in forever she realized how ungrateful she was all this time. She literally had everything in her life and she still complained a lot. 

In some ways, I could see my reflection inside of Brett. She reminds me of the time when I suffered from depression. Especially the scene when she was talking her heart out with her psychiatric friend. The psychiatric told her that she only need more love in her life. I used to be unhappy and stress a lot. I felt unloved. I get down and lonely whenever I was unoccupied, The depression made me neglecting every good thing I had by my side and focusing on the bad. I was not satisfied with my life and I have high expectation in everything which leads me to an unhappy life. But later, I started to change my perspective. I began to be grateful for all the little thing I have instead of what I didn't. Ever since I started to feel better and blessed.

"The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything"

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