log#8

Not until Gus was dead did Hazel realize that when she dies, her parents will still be her parents and love her forever just as she couldn’t have stopped loving Gus. In the past, she thought that it was ridiculous for people to think that pain is like fabric: The stronger it is, the more it’s worth. Finally, she knew that pains given by Gus’s death like scars which were left in her mind forever wouldn’t eliminate the joy of falling in love with him.

When we really love someone, we don’t want them to be hurt. Thus, we keep the distance from them. Like Hazel, she thinks she is a grenade; at some point she’s going to blow up, and she would like to minimize the casualties. Nonetheless, her behavior was actually a bomb for her parents. In my perspective, her parents do have the choice to be hurt because they feel that having Hazel is a burden of happiness, and they would like to take on the consequence. What her parents’ unconditional love for her is like her love for Gus whom she couldn’t unlove. As far as I am concerned, I do have some say in who hurts me. I would rather have a scar in my mind reminds me how deep I love a person than regret that I didn’t seize the chance at that time. When the result doesn’t meet our expectation, I can feel relaxed because I try my best at least.

I really like a sentence, “Without a pain, how could we know joy?” In the past, I always take my parents’ dedication for granted because when we are used to being taken care of, we will think it’s their responsibility to look after us. However, we ignore that they do everything for us not because it is their duty but because they love us unconditionally, and they are willing to do their best to make us happy. It’s not until my father got sick that I realized that he loved me very much and that he devoted himself to making me live a happy life. Painful as I felt about his suffering, it granted me an opportunity to realize the joy of having good parents and quality time with my beloved family. Now, I often go back home and accompany them to do what they like, such as going hiking. If I hadn’t gone through the experience of almost losing my precious family, I wouldn’t have tasted the sweetness of having the best parents in the world.