Log #7

#Log 7-The Life List

Author: Lori Nelson Spielman

Page: p167-271

After dealing with several goals of the life list she wrote at 14, Brett started to find out what her mom wanted her to be. At first, the whole thing may seem to be terrible and make the goal impossible to achieve. However, the outcome always turns to be a positive one. Also, every goal may relate to another one. Take seeking her own father for an example. Brett almost felt depressed when she knew the detective tried his best to find the person named John Manns ( or other related names) based on the clues her mom gave and ended up finding no one. However, with the recovery of her and Carrie’s friendship, Brett visited Carrie’s parents again after 18 years and found that they indeed knew her father for a long time!

After reading the climax of the book, I just come up with one question: “Do I know what I really want and who I am?”  I once had the similar situation like Brett’s. I didn’t know whether I was just getting used to be accompanied by that person or I indeed fell in love with him a lot. Believe or not, it’s sometimes tough to tell your true feeling toward someone. Also, I’m afraid to cheat myself that I am not in crush. What’s I used to do to solve the problem? I usually go through the process from the time we first met to everything we encountered together. By doing so, I can make my mind a little clear. Though feeling should be something obscure or vague, the uncertainty may make you and me blind.