Log #8

    Everything is happening so fast! After Hazel and Augustus went back the trip from Amsterdam, Augustus's cancer relapsed and he died. When I realized that this was truly happening, my feelings went down with Hazel and Augustus's friends and family. One of your intimate friends suddenly leaving you is a shocking and terrible thing. When I was in the first year of my senior high school, one of my friends committed suicide. She jumped off from the fourth floor in our school. I didn't know why she decided to do this but I was extremely heartbroken. I couldn't believe that a person had spoken with me yesterday but she wouldn't appear in my life anymore. I couldn't believe a lovely girl wouldn't chat with you again. I couldn't believe a considerate girl wouldn't get the chance to meet new people, no longer experiencing her adventurous life. That feeling stroke me again when I knew the death of Augustus. There is a hole in my heart and I felt so upset.

   

    "You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers." This is the sentence from Augustus's letter to Van Houten, Hazel's favorite author.  I think this statement makes me know how important love is in our life. As human beings, we all get hurt by someone, but we can choose to be hurt by someone we really care about. In the beginning, Hazel built an invisible wall between her and her family, friends and even Augustus. She chose not to put so many feelings in people surrounding her so that when she was gone, she would hurt nobody. However, Augustus, on the other hand, he was a boy living in the moment. He cherished and loved his beloved ones. Though he did know he didn't have much time to live, he still made good use of it. I think if we want something so badly, we should go get it. We don't have the time to think about what time do we still have. The truth is, we indeed don't have much time left. We never know what will happen next, so what we do is to seize the opportunity you have. In the end, we won't regret it and it is better than doing nothing.